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Bleak (Psalm 102*)

My God, hear me and listen to my outcry. My heart is hurt and my soul is troubled My days are wasted, and I cannot concentrate. I am bewildered and need your help. I am unsettled and want You to answer me. I am totally distracted, and I cannot get anything done. I lie awakeContinue reading “Bleak (Psalm 102*)”

I The Magician

Based on Meditations on the Tarot Sharing harmony – the synthesis of the impulse of the unconscious and the compulsion of the conscious The wisdom of Solomon… balances a conundrum – “Give the living baby to the first woman. Do not kill him; she is his mother.” [1] Thus the method of analogy leads toContinue reading “I The Magician”

The Tooth

The whole tooth and nothing but the tooth… the tooth is not free. Here it comes, dad said, as he lowered the bucket and then the handle broke wiping out my tooth but the root was OK… the answer was a crown. Fifty years of cleanings with some caries and a bout with periodontitis, impactContinue reading “The Tooth”

Psalm 22 (Final Part)

For She has not scorned me in my suffering; She has not disregarded me in my affliction She has listened to my cry for help. I will tell my story over and over; I will keep all my promises. The poor will have food and be satisfied; all whoContinue reading “Psalm 22 (Final Part)”

Help Me (Psalm 22) Part 3

I am surrounded by the willful; they encircle me and take away my confidence. I am naked and vulnerable. I hurt in my bones; I wallow in my misery. I have nothing left my body is sacked, my heart is bursting. I beg you, my Lady, be not farContinue reading “Help Me (Psalm 22) Part 3”

Help Me (Psalm 22) Part 2

For you have brought me here; I have trusted you I felt safe as safe as at my mother’s breast. Yes, from birth I was chosen by you; from my mother’s womb you have been my God. Do not be far from me, for trouble is near and thereContinue reading “Help Me (Psalm 22) Part 2”

For Me (Psalm 22) Part 1

My God, my God, why have you abandoned me? why do I not feel safe? are you listening to me? O my God, I cry out by day, but you do not answer, by night, and you do not respond. Yet you are our God; and we are your people.Continue reading “For Me (Psalm 22) Part 1”

IX The Hermit

(from the Meditations on the Tarot) In solitude but not alone, exercising inner strength. With expectant longing, practicing prudence. The wolf will live with the lamb, the leopard will lie with the goat, the calf will sit with the lion, and the little child will lead them.[1] The Hermit synthesizes – idealism and realism, pragmatismContinue reading “IX The Hermit”

Mother

the Spirit came upon her and the one born of her is called Holy[1] we are clingy and restless beyond life, Moms give being their holding is freeing my tongue stammers and falters[2] as I acclaim our Mother we are cranky and hapless beyond life, Moms engender union, never asunder we should thank Her weContinue reading “Mother”

Triangulation

Triangulation – damaging and enabling conflicting and stabilizing discouraging and empowering without regulation – preservation presentation preparation with speculation – information interpretation imagination without manipulation – alteration application association with modulation – communication cooperation consideration